javaneh

Sleepless as I contemplate what the future will bring with it, I think the past and how I've come full circle.

At 17 I went to Iran to visit a friend and ended up staying there, getting married and having kids... until the revolution of '79. That changed my world and that of my family. Most of the family went to the US and have died since. My kids grew up British and not suprisingly dissassociate themselves with Iran. Me ...well Iran was were I grew up and it was a very different place to how it is today.

So as I think about returning there I am filled with apprehension. It will not be as I remember it, it will not be as I left it. What will it be like?
What will I do there?

Over the years since Ive been back in the UK, Ive missed Iran, I even think about it as home. I made a life for myself and my family here but I never quite fitted in again, Is this a problem people like me have in common? I remember feeling homesick for the UK when I was there and homesick for Iran when I was here.

I have no doubt that I can fit in again there as much as a foreign wife can . Language is not a problem, neither culture. So what am I worried about?? I have yet to work that out. I guess another life change is enough.